unfinished thoughts 001
processing
Hello, if you are reading this, this is my first blog post. I’ve been itching to write again, to get my thoughts out of my head and onto a “page” screen. When I was younger, I used to write stories and all kinds of things, and somewhere along the way, that disappeared. I keep asking myself, where did that love for creating go, and how do I get it back? So here we are…trying to process.
exploring
This is a season for me to embrace imperfection. I tend to hold back in different aspects of my life, creativity being one of them. there is a tendency to feel stuck with trying new things I think because I’m worried I can’t do them perfectly. If I let that stop me, I just stare and do nothing. I’m still learning how to sit with that discomfort, how to move forward even when I don’t know exactly what I’m supposed to be doing. Right now, I’m trying to tell myself to just do it (sponsored by Nike jk). There’s nothing to lose.What I am potentially losing is myself by not allowing me to experience certain experiences. Even small steps matter, and just doing them is enough.
My faith plays a role in this too. It’s really about trusting that God’s got me. He has had me before, and He still has me. That trust brings a kind of relief and helps quiet some of the anxiety I feel.
Running has been a big part of how I process things. It gives me a chance to focus, to sort through my thoughts, and to pay attention to my breath. Writing might serve a similar purpose, helping me get my thoughts out of my head and understand what I’m really feeling. I will more than likely go more in depth on what I have learned about myself while working out/running. Potentially, maybe I will be able to write about how this blog is helping me. We shall see.
creating
This blog is mostly for me. It’s a place to process, create, and explore. But maybe someone reading this is going through the same thing. Maybe following along could help them too. Maybe it will spark something in you, or maybe it will just show you that you’re not alone in feeling a little lost sometimes. These posts will be all over the place just based on random thoughts I have throughout the week. It can get into my reset journey, fitness, spirituality, pop culture…basically anything I want to get my thoughts out on. Kinda embrace the chaos of not having a true theme.
